Promises

 It wasn't crashout, it wasn't something that happened with a surprise and fireworks. I falled for you slowly, firstly with the way you admired the sun touching the surface of the pond. I falled for the way you fell asleep next to me after the long day under the city lights.

I move your hair away from your face, behind your ears. I lurk what you are drawing so intensively. Black lines on the paper, the way your pen dances in it and starts to make picture that would make much more sense than anything between us.

Half year ago, you were just a crow following me around. You got yourself a human form to go and get more information among the people I was trying to hide from. You were supposed to be nothing but a helper. Yet you decided to sneak your way to my heart and melt the ice around it.

I felt you in every vein, in my bones. In my whole body before I realized how much space you have taken inside my mind and heart. I told myself not to, I begged myself not to. I had already broken my heart way too many times before and promised to never break it again. And you promised me the same...that you would never break even a bone in my body. 

Your touch haunts me when I am alone. I hear your voice in my sleeps...I feel you around me when you are not. You fill every room I walk in.

"I promise you, I wouldn't do the same as the ones before me...." you whisper to me when you find me crying over the fact that I opened my heart to something new. Somehow I already knew that you would be different. I felt it in this body that aches for the need to be loved and held. And that made me more afraid than anything else ever could. The fact that I knew you wouldn't hurt me. 

"But what if now I am no better than any of those who showed me to not trust in love?"