Dear diary

 Naseria

I feel like time runs past me, I stay still and can't get hold of anything or anyone anymore.

It all feels too much, I feel too much.

I don't know where to go, what to do or even what to say.

It falls apart.

I fall apart.

I-

Please. I seek for help....can someone stop the world for a sec. Can someone just take my hand, and let me know it will be okay again?

I can't see clearly, not in this darkness. Is it even dark or just blurry? Or is it too bright after all these years?

 My brain is blurry. I am. The vision of me is, my future is.

It feels like the chaos is all around me. 

I can't breathe.

I try again. I try, try and try. 

I can't do anything. So I just watch how it all falls apart to these small pieces that causes wounds to my skin.

Do you see me? Do you know me?

How?

Because I don't. I don't know who I am.