Naseria
I have problems. Not like existing problems....well those too. Some days I don't want to be here. But I am more likely talking of those kind of problems that....
For example I get so keen on people, that it actually hurts me physically when they leave. No matter how long we have known each other - but if they starts to feel like close to me, it hurts really badly.
Or those kind of problems where I like to believe I am a lot stronger than I am. Mentally. I like to believe I don't care so much, but actually I care a lot more than what I care to admit.
Or
The fact that I am writing this stupid text in the middle of the night because I struggled to sleep because my mind is soooo loud. Like how can I sleep when my mind goes on and on without making even a small hint of getting quiet? Yeahhhh.
I also used to think that I can let go off of things, well turns out I can't. It stucks on me like tattoos, or scars that never fully fade. I carry them, and the things do feel heavy at some points. Like really heavy. In a way that it makes it hard for me to wake up in the morning, and fall asleep in the night. And it makes me struggles to find my will to be here during days.
Atleast I feel. Physically and mentally. There have been times when I haven't been able to feel physical pain until it's like in a point where I am about to faint.
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